November 2008
Sitting awkwardly on Cordelia’s bed the night before Thanksgiving Avery looked over at her girlfriend with a raised eyebrow because ever since she had came over tonight things had been weird. Leaving Avery feeling like Cordelia had meant it weeks ago in her text when she said they’d continue their fight when she was back home.
Something Avery had hoped she had been joking about but of course Avery couldn’t get so lucky. The world hating her too much for that this year.
“Are we really going to argue?” Avery asked finally breaking the silence that had gathered between them after the French indie film they had been watching ended.
Cordelia avoided Avery’s gaze as she shook her head, “No,” she frowned as she moved to brush some hair behind her own ear. “I know I was being stupid in those texts,” she whispered softly still not meeting Avery’s gaze. “But I was drunk and maybe I had just saw the new tattoo on Paisley’s finger,” she admitted as she looked back up.
Avery not missing it when Cordelia’s eyes landed on her necklace. “It reminded me she still loves you and I just felt like I’m never going to measure up to the first girl you fell in love with.”
“You don’t have to measure up to her,” Avery told Cordelia as she moved a bit closer. “How I feel for you and how I feel for her is two completely different things and they always will be. You never love two people the same Cordy. I mean I’m sure you don’t love me the way you loved Jane.”
“Of course I don’t because I never truly loved Jane,” Cordelia admitted looking almost guilty. “I just used her to forget that I still loved you.”
Avery blushed at that admission though it was something she had suspected for ages.
“But you truly loved Paisley,” Cordelia told her in the silence she had let continue. “I’m just afraid that she’ll want you back one day and you’ll go running back because you love her.”
Avery looked away from Cordelia now, her hands reaching to mess with the blanket on Cordelia’s bed. “She cheated on me,” she stated not having told Cordelia at all about Paisley denying it. “I’m not dumb enough to go back to someone who has cheated on me.”
“Yet you are dumb enough to have sex with her again,” Cordelia reminded her, bringing up the incident in Charlotte.
Something Avery figured would always be stuck in Cordelia’s head forever. Not that Avery could blame her because she still couldn’t forget the day she found Ellery at Paisley’s.
Which was why she was still so leery in believing that Paisley was telling the truth when she said she didn’t cheat.
“It was a minor setback,” Avery defended as she chewed on her lip her blush growing some.
“So if I asked you to get rid of the necklace you would,” Cordelia spoke as she locked eyes with Avery.
Avery feeling like that was exactly what Cordelia was asking her to do right now. Something she wasn’t sure she could do just yet.
“Not today,” Avery admitted softly as she broke eye contact, her hand going to grab onto the pendants like they were her lifeline. “I couldn’t get rid of it today but maybe someday.”
Cordelia let out a small bittersweet chuckle, “Someday may never come,” she muttered out like she believed the necklace would always stay on Avery’s neck.
“Or it could come tomorrow,” Avery replied which made Cordelia look at her in an unbelieving way.
Avery heaving a sigh because even though they weren’t supposed to be arguing this felt a lot like arguing to her and she didn’t like it.
Not one tiny bit.
So instead of giving Cordelia a chance to say anything else, Avery leaned in and kissed her softly on the lips. One of her hands going to rest on Cordelia’s cheek.
A small smile appearing on her lips when Cordelia kissed her back. Her eyes fluttering shut as Cordelia pushed her back on the bed. One of Cordelia’s hands slowly finding it’s way up and under Avery’s shirt which made Avery pull away softly to look up at Cordelia.
“Are we going to do this?” Avery asked her with a raised eyebrow.
Cordelia smirked some as she looked down at Avery, “I told you on the phone we’d have sex. What better way to have it then after an almost argument?” she asked as her smirk grew.
Soon leaning down to kiss Avery again and Avery felt her eyes flutter shut once more. Letting herself get lost in the kiss.
Tiny moans coming out every so often as Cordelia’s hand explored under her shirt. One hand finally resting against Avery’s breast as she felt her up through her bra.
Avery surprised that she was even getting turned on by something so innocent.
Pulling away from the kiss again Avery lifted her shirt off, blushing when Cordelia’s eyes roamed her chest. Even if Cordelia had seen her in various states of undress a million times before.
This was just different mainly because they weren’t just casually undressing in front of each other as friends. They were actually going to have sex with each other.
“Like what you see?” Avery asked her as their eyes locked again.
“Very much so,” Cordelia told her before leaning in to kiss her again. Her lips not staying on Avery’s for long though as she kissed her way down to Avery’s neck.
Avery tilting her head slightly. Wishing that she had just the same burning sensation she had every time Paisley had used to touch her like this. If she did maybe it’d be a bit easier to fall into the sex. To enjoy herself more.
Not to say she wasn’t enjoying this because she was, especially when Cordelia left little nips on the skin of her neck but it wasn’t as good as Avery knew it could be for her. Wasn’t as good as she hoped her first time with Cordelia could be.
But she wasn’t about to stop this and say anything. Afraid that if she did they’d just end up in an argument again. Avery not wanting that especially the night before their first official holiday as a couple.
Even though they weren’t going to get to spend tomorrow together. Cordelia’s family leaving early in the morning to head to Oklahoma City to see family they had there.
Opening her eyes as she let out a louder moan after Cordelia had pushed the cup of her bra down. Her lips attaching to Avery’s nipple all Avery could do then was let out loud moans.
Hoping against hope that neither of Cordelia’s parents were awake and could hear them. Not sure how she’d be able to face them if she knew they had heard her and Cordelia having sex.
After all she had known Andrea and Jim for years and they were almost like second parents to her. There was no way she wanted them to hear her having sex. Like she never wanted her parents to hear her either for a lot of reasons.
Almost hoping that her parents somehow believed she was a virgin. Though she was far from being a virgin now which was hard to believe as she had never saw herself losing her virginity this year when it had started.
“Fuck Cordy,” Avery muttered out finally when Cordelia moved her mouth off her nipple. Pushing the other bra cup down to do the same to her other nipple.
But before she did she looked at Avery, giving her a wink. Making Avery roll her eyes playfully because it would just be like Cordelia to get an ego boost from knowing she was making Avery feel good.
Especially after an argument over her jealousy with Paisley.
Keeping her eyes opened Avery chewed on her lip to keep from moaning any louder as Cordelia gave her other nipple the same amount of attention she had given the first.
A whine building up in Avery’s throat as Cordelia moved her mouth away, continuing kissing down Avery’s body. Only coming to a stop when she reached Avery’s jeans, pulling away from her to undo them in a hurry.
Pushing them down off of Avery once she had them undone as well as pushing Avery’s panties off along with her jeans.
But the moment that she was laying there in nothing but a bra which was pulled down past her breasts Avery froze when she saw Cordelia’s eyes land on the camera tattoo that was on her hip bone. Watching as Cordelia’s face changed from someone who looked happy to someone who was piecing together puzzle pieces in her head.
“Cordy…” Avery started as she sat up reaching out for Cordelia but frowning when she moved away from her touch.
“That’s new,” Cordelia stated as she shook her head. “I know you didn’t get that when you got your sun tattoo.”
Avery nodded her head, “It is new,” she confirmed as she watched Cordelia move even farther away from her. Looking like she had been slapped or something.
“When did you get it?” Cordelia asked nothing in her voice coming out like she was happy at all.
“The day after my birthday,” Avery answered as she ran a hand through her hair. “It’s just a stupid tattoo Cordy.”
Cordelia laughed at that as she shook her head, “No, if it was a stupid tattoo you would have told me the day you got it or something. I wouldn’t be seeing it the first time we were going to have sex with each other,” she muttered out her use of going to letting Avery know that the mood had changed.
There would be no sex tonight between her and Cordelia and the argument she wanted to avoid the night before Thanksgiving was going to happen anyway.
“I was scared to show you,” Avery admitted her voice all soft sounding. “I knew how you’d react and what you’d think.”
“You knew I’d think it was for your ex,” Cordelia told her pointedly. “Maybe because it is for your ex. I mean why else would you even know my mind would go there seeing a camera tattooed on your hip bone.”
“But it’s not for her,” Avery defended hoping her voice came out more convinced than what she herself felt. “Like I said it’s just a stupid tattoo.”
Cordelia shook her head as she finally moved off the bed, “Keep telling yourself that lie and maybe you’ll believe it but I won’t. Now just get dressed and leave because I just…I want to be alone.”
Avery frowned but she didn’t argue with Cordelia. Instead she stood from the bed. Fixing her bra before putting on the rest of her clothes.
Leaving the room in silence after she was dressed, almost thankful that on the way out she she didn’t run into Andrea or Jim. Not wanting either of them to know she was arguing with their daughter.
Feeling like ever since she had gotten with Cordelia all they did was argue. Which maybe that was a sign they shouldn’t be together but Avery was stubborn and refused to give up. Not when she just wanted to be happy and despite everything Cordelia did make her happy.