January 2009
Laying in bed that night, Avery opened her eyes as she laid beside Paisley. Unable to sleep because her mind wouldn’t shut down. Wouldn’t let her sleep. Not when she kept remembering that now she officially had no home. She was homeless and it was all because of her mom.
Her dad having been helpless because of course he’d never go against her mom in the end. Afraid of making her to mad at him and Avery understood that. She got it but even with that she was upset with her dad.
Feeling like in ways she had been abandoned by both her parents even if her dad swore he still loved her. Regardless of who she loved.
“Pai?” Avery asked softly not even turning to look at the girl whose arm was wrapped around her. Being her big spoon. “Are you awake?”
“I’m trying not to be,” Paisley responded her voice low.
Avery laughed at that before slowly turning to face Paisley, “Me too but I just can’t sleep,” she confessed with a tiny frown. “My mind just won’t shut the fuck up.”
“And I can help with that how?” Paisley asked feigning innocence. Like she didn’t know what Avery wanted when Avery was sure they both clearly knew what she wanted and they knew it well.
“You know how you can help,” Avery told her as she gave her a playful glare, moving a bit closer until her head was on the same pillow as Paisley’s. “I want you,” she said so plainly.
Much too easy for someone who had a girlfriend several states away.
Paisley smirked at that information as she let her hand slowly go up the tank top that Avery had on, “You want me huh?” she asked still trying to sound innocent. “You know you shouldn’t want that. Not when you have Cordelia,” she spoke mentioning the girl Avery seemed to have lost all care for.
Which sounded harsh because of course Avery cared for her. She just didn’t love her like she should. Didn’t love her like a girlfriend yet she was too afraid of hurting her to let her go.
Even if cheating on her would hurt too but then again she never had to know about this did she? Never had to know Avery ran to Paisley briefly for the comfort Cordelia couldn’t give her. Never would be able too even if she was here in person because well sadly she wasn’t who Avery needed.
Avery needed Paisley in this moment. Because maybe she still saw Paisley as her home, her one true soulmate.
“I know,” Avery whispered not moving an inch away from Paisley. “But I want you,” she spoke with a small sigh. “Please.”
Paisley’s smirk grew at that as her hand went higher under Avery’s tank top. Making Avery shiver at the contact.
But before Avery could do anymore begging Paisley leaned in and kissed her and much too quickly Avery responded back. Her eyes falling shut as she moved to turn on her back. Bringing Paisley with her so that Paisley was on top of her.
An action that lead to their hips moving together the more heated and desperate the kiss became. Both of them clearly wanting this despite knowing the one reason they shouldn’t.
When Paisley did pull away from the kiss it was only to remove the top Avery had on and then her lips were back on Avery’s. Kissing her sloppily for a few minutes before letting her lips move slowly down to Avery’s neck. Making a trail down to Avery’s breast which she peppered with tiny kisses.
Looking up at Avery with the same smirk from before.
“What?” Avery questioned before moaning right when Paisley’s mouth went around one of her nipples sucking on it slowly and tortuously. Like she knew she was driving Avery up the wall.
“You just look really good,” Paisley told her after she pulled away from sucking on Avery’s nipple. “So fucking delicious.”
Laughing loudly at that Avery felt a faint blush growing on her cheeks, “Delicious huh?” she questioned. “Delicious enough that you could eat me?”
“Right up,” Paisley nodded her head before kissing just above the nipple she had been sucking on. “Do you want that? You want me to eat you?”
Avery chewed on her lip softly before nodding her head. Admitting what they both knew she wanted. She wanted Paisley between her legs and eating her pussy which was already so wet.
Paisley winked at her after that non verbal answer. Her lip attaching back onto the nipple an action that made Avery’s head fall back.
“Fuck Pai,” she muttered out as she lifted her hips up some. Almost needing a friction of some sort.
Anything to help the ache that was forming between her legs. An ache that only Paisley could cure in the end.
Paisley though if she could sense what Avery wanted wasn’t showing it. Instead she was taking her time sucking on Avery’s nipple. Sucking on it to the point Avery was whimpering and once she moved away from that Avery’s whimpers died down only briefly.
Before Paisley attached her lips to Avery’s other nipple giving it the same treatment as the first. Sucking on it and occasionally biting it. Making Avery’s pussy wetter than what it was.
Avery wondering if Paisley was doing this on purpose. Doing this to delay what they both knew Avery wanted as well as just to delay everything period because once this was over and once they both fell asleep and then woke up tomorrow they’d part ways.
More than likely never seeing each other again. Avery going to Taylor and Natalie’s for a few days at least then who knew what would happen from there and Paisley going back to New York where she now lived. She’d probably even eventually find another girl to date and fall in love with.
Not that Avery wanted to think about that though. Hated the idea of Paisley dating someone who wasn’t her in the end still. Which made her a hypocrite since she was dating Cordelia.
When Paisley finally removed her mouth off Avery’s second nipple Avery bit down on her lip as she watched Paisley kissing down her stomach. Only stopping when she reached the hem of Avery’s pajama pants which she pushed down along with Avery’s panties.
Her lips moving to leave light kisses on Avery’s hip bones once she was fully naked and Avery let her eyes fall shut at that. Sucking in shallow breaths the closer Paisley got to her pussy.
Avery let out a loud moan when Paisley’s lips finally reached her pussy. A place where Paisley left light little kisses before licking at the wet flesh. Leaving slow long licks. Like she was trying to savor Avery’s taste. Remember it when she didn’t have it again.
A thought that was one Avery also didn’t like. Hated just thinking of not being with Paisley again yet she knew it was a reality that would happen.
“Pai,” Avery moaned out as she opened her eyes and looked down at the girl between her legs. A girl who didn’t stop what she was doing even as she locked eyes with Avery.
Instead she kept licking at Avery slowly easing a finger inside of her and beginning to fuck her with it. Letting it thrust in and out of Avery about as slow as her licks where. Clearly doing everything to keep Avery’s orgasm at bay and clearly she was succeeding.
Letting Avery get just close enough before slowing things down and Avery couldn’t help but whine even if maybe now she wasn’t sure she wanted to orgasm just yet. Wanted to just keep Paisley like this for as long as she could.
“Love you,” Avery whispered out as she kept her eyes locked with Paisley’s. “I love you so much Paisley.”
Paisley moved away at that, “I love you too,” she spoke sounding almost sad to say those words and after saying them she went back to licking at Avery’s pussy, soon adding a second finger inside of her as well.
Which with the addition of the second finger no matter how much both of them wanted to hold off Avery’s orgasm it came.
Avery arching her hips up slightly as it did. Paisley’s name as well as the words I love you leaving her lips one more time. A lump forming in her throat but she refused to cry. Not during a moment like this because what idiot cried after getting oral sex?
Anyway she had cried entirely too much in the past few days and didn’t want to cry anymore. Hated feeling weak with how much she had cried.
Paisley eventually moved out from between Avery’s legs after her orgasm subsided and she laid back down beside Avery.
“Are you okay to sleep now?”
Avery nodded her head as she looked at Paisley. “I think so but I mean…I can return the favor if you want me too,” she spoke not sure it was fair she got to orgasm twice because of Paisley and Paisley hadn’t gotten off once.
Shaking her head Paisley avoided Avery’s gaze, “I’m good,” she told her though Avery suspected she wasn’t. But Avery knew better than to question her on it.
Probably wouldn’t like what she said or so she had a feeling anyway.
“Okay,” Avery sighed as she moved a bit closer. “But you can at least sleep naked if you want or I could get dressed if it makes you…”
Paisley leaned in then to kiss Avery on the lips. An action that Avery felt was to shut her up which well with that feeling Avery stayed silent when Paisley moved away from the kiss.
“I love you but just we shouldn’t…you have a girlfriend and I’m not stupid Avie,” Paisley said as she smiled though it wasn’t genuine. “I know you don’t intend to break up with her even after everything and I don’t want to play myself. Don’t want to have you do things for me and convince myself it means something because I’m not sure it does. Not when you are still with her and lying to her regardless of everything.”
Avery swallowed hard as Paisley spoke. The lump in her throat growing just a bit bigger but again she still refused to cry.
Even if she hated that Paisley clearly felt Avery was using her because that was the farthest from the truth. Avery wouldn’t ever use Paisley. If anything it was Cordelia she was using and she knew that. Just didn’t want to break her best friend’s heart just yet by ruining what Cordelia had wanted for ages.
“O..okay,” Avery said again as she nodded her head. “Goodnight Pai,” she whispered before turning away from Paisley and closing her eyes and the moment she felt Paisley turn away from her. Not even putting an arm around her Avery let her tears that she had refused to let come out earlier, come out.
Crying silently as she drifted off into a restless dreams. Dreams filled with mocking from her mom and accusations from Cordelia in which she felt like a horrible person.