November 2010
Chewing her lip nervously Avery sat on the balcony of Paisley’s apartment. Cal and Juniper had left not too long ago and now it was just her and Paisley alone, Avery wondering if Paisley would heed what she had said in the car and not do anything to lead her on.
Avery also wondering if Paisley did try anything if she even had the will to stop her.
The sad reality was, she wasn’t sure if she did in the end. She’d go along with it even if it meant just being hurt in the end.
Though she really did want to stop disappointing Zac. Wanted to stop making bad decisions like she was doing period but she was a sucker for bad decisions.
It was just a flaw or a destructive habit in her life it seemed. One she was having issues getting rid of.
“So,” Avery spoke as she sighed, breaking the silence that had settled over her and Paisley since Cal and Junie had left. “I should probably get a cab and leave,” she said before chewing her lip again. Her breath almost stopping as she waited to see what Paisley said.
Waited to see if Paisley would disagree because she wanted Avery to spend the night. Preferably doing more than platonic sleeping.
Paisley nodded her head in agreement, an action that shocked Avery but she did her best to ignore it. Just like she did her best to ignore the hurt she felt from realizing it seemed for now that Paisley had made her choice.
Paisley was choosing to be with Sloan regardless of the fact that she couldn’t see herself marrying her. But well, this wasn’t Avery’s dead relationship so she’d just keep her thoughts to herself. She’d refrain from saying anything.
So instead of speaking she stood up from where she was sitting, heading inside to call a cab. Almost glad that Paisley hadn’t followed behind her. Kind of knew deep down if she had things would be ending differently right now.
Arriving home Avery had barely gotten inside of the apartment when she heard someone clearing their throat and as she turned around she was surprised to see Ethan standing in front of the couch with his arms crossed, looking so much like a father about to scold their daughter.
Avery was in no way his daughter. She wasn’t even his girlfriend, not that she wanted to be. She was just the girl he fucked once in New York who refused to leave his life. She was the girl he wrote songs about and the girl he kissed when her life went to shit.
“Where the hell have you been?” Ethan hissed out as he walked closer to her. Avery seeing a fire burning in his eyes.
It was a sight she had never seen on him before.
Swallowing hard when Ethan stopped once he was right in front of her, Avery moved to lean against the closed front door. Her gaze avoiding his eyes because she was almost afraid with the fire in them she may get burned.
“I went to hang out with Cal and Juniper,” Avery revealed softly before finally looking at him again. “They were at Paisley’s apartment.”
Nodding his head Ethan’s anger didn’t seem to fade. Instead Avery swore the fire in his eyes only burned a bit stronger now.
“That explains it then,” he said an edge to his voice. “Why you didn’t tell me you were leaving. You knew I’d disapprove of you being near Paisley because you’d fall into that trap again and get hurt,” he spoke like he already expected that she had.
Like he had made up his mind on whether she fucked Paisley tonight.
Rolling her eyes Avery shook her head no. “No,” she stated trying to sound firm. “I left without telling you because your tongue was shoved down another guys throat and you were ignoring me on my birthday and making me wonder what the hell the last few weeks of us kissing and flirting even were to you,” she muttered out not even sure why she had added on the last bit.
Maybe she could blame the alcohol she had drank at Paisley’s with her friends. Though she had only had two drinks and they were probably not in her system as bad anymore.
Ethan seemed to pause at that, taking in Avery’s words. Avery half wishing she had the ability to read his mind and know what was going on in there.
“It was just kissing and flirting,” Ethan finally spoke though Avery knew from his tone as well as his inability to look at her now that he was lying. “You love Paisley and that’s all it was.”
“Was that really all it was E?” Avery questioned him her voice still firm. “For you? Not for me but for you.”
Ethan again paused and this time he moved away from Avery, finally wanting to respect her personal boundaries it seemed. Like her words had affected him in ways he hadn’t seen coming.
Probably hadn’t seen her getting the upper hand in this but she had.
“That’s all it has to be isn’t it?” Ethan asked her as if she held all the answers and to be honest Avery wasn’t sure she did. “You love Paisley…you love women, it’s why I..it’s why I tried so hard to push Harper on you. I know you want women. You’ll never want or love me like I love you and I just..I want you happy,” he admitted before stopping when he realized what he had said.
Avery not even sure why she was shocked at him saying he loved her. She knew that, suspected it deep down that his feelings hadn’t went away.
If they had he would have been able to tell her no in September when they crossed lines again. He hadn’t, in fact, he was the one who started them.
“And I have to find a way to make myself happy now,” Avery told him as she moved away from the door. “Pai and I didn’t sleep together. I guess she finally made her choice and regardless of everything it was Sloan and I have to live with that,” she told him with a sad smile.
The room falling silent which Avery used to her ability, beginning to move to walk to her room. But she came to a stop halfway towards the hallway when she heard Ethan say her name.
Slowly turning to face him she raised an eyebrow expectantly.
“I want…I want to make you happy,” he told her like it was something he just realized.
Avery doubted he had though. Suspected he had known it for some time but had never had the chance to say it until now.
“I know you do,” she said with a nod of her head. Not sure what else she could say because she wasn’t sure if he could make her happy.
He did have a penis and she wasn’t really attracted to people with penises. Yet somehow despite that she did seem to find herself in less than friendly circumstances with him.
“But how about tonight instead of long term happiness you give me short term happiness?” Avery asked with a raised eyebrow. Almost wanting to laugh at the confused puppy expression on his face.
“Short term happiness?” Ethan asked proving that he somehow hadn’t comprehended what she said and again Avery wanted to laugh but she held it in.
Finally she bit down on her lip softly, giving him a look that she hoped was her best seductive look. “I’m asking if you want to screw around,” she told him watching as realization dawned on him. An adorable blush forming on his cheeks as he walked to where she was and instead of verbally answering her, he leaned in to kiss her.
Their lips crashing like they hadn’t kissed in years. Both of them hungry and wanting that short term happiness, that despite the way tonight had first started, they could only find in each other and not the people they had been with earlier.
Avery because Paisley had made her choice and well Avery had no clue why Ethan hadn’t went home with the guy from the club.
She also was in no mood to ask. Not when she was willingly letting Ethan take the lead now as they kissed some more. Both of them finding the way to his bedroom instead of hers.
Mainly because his bedroom was closer.
The moment they were in his bedroom they pulled away from the kiss, long enough for both of them to get naked on their own and once she was fully naked in front of Ethan again, Avery blushed which was ridiculous because he had seen her naked before.
Had even seen her half naked before as well but yet in this moment she felt so fucking vulnerable. One of the joys that came with sex and willingly giving yourself over to another person, even if it was meaningless.
Feeling him looking her over her blush grew, especially when they locked eyes again.
Though neither of them talked. Instead they went back to kissing each other, Avery once again letting Ethan lead the way to his bed where he moved back, bringing her with him.
Their body just a mess of limbs now it seemed as their kisses became sloppy. Her hand finding its way between them where she stroked his cock almost uneasy.
Not sure if she was doing it right because it had been literal years since his cock was in her hand like this.
“Tell me if I do something wrong,” Avery spoke softly as she pulled away from the kiss, letting her forehead rest against his.
“I will,” Ethan muttered through a moan as his hips bucked slightly. “Right now you’re doing a really good job though,” he told her and for some reason his words made her blush again.
Something that didn’t go away thanks to them locking eyes. A tiny smirk finding it’s way onto Ethan’s lips and before Avery could even ask why, she got her answer in the form of his hand between her legs. His fingers rubbing at her wet flesh only briefly before two of them found their way inside of her.
Her eyes falling shut briefly at how good it felt to have something inside of her, giving her the relief she wanted.
Opening her eyes again she saw that Ethan’s smirk had grown, which only made her roll her eyes as well as slow down her hand. A tiny whine coming from him, yet despite his whine and despite her being a tease he kept his fingers moving inside of her at the same pace.
Fucking her with his fingers, Avery wondering if he wished it were his cock.
A small tiny part of her wished it were his cock inside of her. But tonight she’d settle for his fingers.
Letting her eyes fall shut she picked up the pace with her hand again. Stroking him as she fantasized about having actual sex with him.
Pictured riding his cock, something she hadn’t done the first time they had sex in New York all those years ago. But now she wanted it. Wanted to ride him until she was coming on his cock like someone who had never been fucked before.
Hearing him tell her that he was close, Avery picked up the pace of her hand. Wanting to make Ethan come.
“Oh..fucking hell,” Ethan groaned and right as he finished talking Avery felt him still beneath her. Her hand soon being coated in his come which made her open her eyes as she made a face at the mess.
Knowing in the end she only had herself to blame for it.
Once he was done she moved her hand off him, holding it up to his lips as she finally smirked now.
“Clean your mess up,” she told him almost sternly. Surprised when he just winked at her before doing as she asked. His tongue coming out to lick at her hand as his fingers began to move inside of her again.
Avery biting down on her lip to keep from moaning too loud at the sensations going through her from his fingers inside of her and his tongue licking her hand, cleaning off his own come.
It was enough that she knew she too would be finishing soon. He’d give her that short term happy feeling before too long.
After Ethan was done licking her hand, Avery moved it away from him. Her hips beginning to move with his fingers as her breathing got harder.
Her eyes falling shut again though the moment they did Ethan tsked softly.
“Keep your eyes open darlin,” Ethan spoke his voice all soft too. “Want you to look at me as I make you come,” he said and at his words Avery opened her eyes.
Her eyes locking with his as he kept fingering her. Her hips continuing to move with him as she rode his fingers like she wanted to ride his cock.
That thought somehow finally bringing her over the edge, Avery fighting the urge to let her head roll back as she orgasmed. Instead she gave Ethan what he wanted.
She was looking at him as she came her. Her walls closing around his fingers which had stilled inside of her. A cocky smirk on his lips and Avery wanted to be annoyed but it was hard.
It was hard to be annoyed when he had made her feel so fucking good.
Feeling him slip his fingers out of her once her orgasm had subsided Avery was in no way shocked when he did her like she had done him. His fingers coming to rest on her lips and she opened her mouth eagerly to suck them clean.
Doing her best not to wonder if Ethan was picturing his cock in place of his hands. Because if she did they’d just end up doing more tonight and she was too exhausted to do more.
More could wait until later.