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March 2008

Sitting in her room as she worked on her school work, Avery looked up when she heard a knock on the door. Confusion building in her as she saw Cordelia standing in her doorway.

She had been back in Tulsa for a little less than a week and since then she had spent most of her time with Juniper and Paisley. Still not having told the latter yet that her mom wanted to meet her or that she was wanting to travel this summer.

Though she also still hadn’t heard from her parents if she could yet. But she did know her mom had mentioned it to her dad. Had done so the day they got back and they had told Avery they’d let her know as soon as they came to a decision.

Both wanting to pray about it first before saying yes.

“Cordy?” Avery asked seeing Cordelia looking down all shy and bashful. Like she was afraid to even come into Avery’s room. “You can come in I don’t bite.”

Cordelia laughed as she slowly walked into Avery’s room, “I know,” she said as she shut the door behind her. “But I guess I’m just not sure if I’m allowed in anymore,” she sighed as she looked down at Avery’s schoolwork before crinkling her nose. “And who does schoolwork at four in the afternoon on a Friday?”

“I do but it’s math and I put math off until last always,” Avery told her with a smile. “You know how much I despise it,” she reminded her before dropping her smile slightly. “But you’re always welcome in my room Cordy.”

“Really? Even after how things went on my birthday because I was such a bitch and I wouldn’t mind it if you hated me for it,” Cordelia spoke as she sat down on the edge of the bed, looking at Avery who was seated across from her at the table. “I shouldn’t have got angry just because you don’t have a crush on me anymore.”

Avery shook her head, “You weren’t really a bitch. Just angry and maybe a lot hurt. I get it,” she told her because in ways maybe she did.

It wasn’t like she was any closer to being positive on if maybe Paisley liked her back or not. Even after the letter and the song mainly because they hadn’t talked about that either. Avery kind of afraid too because what if she was let down again?

“Yeah, I was hurt,” Cordelia nodded as she broke eye contact with Avery. “But I shouldn’t have been so angry and lashed out at you. You can’t help it if you love Paisley and after some thinking if Paisley makes you happy, truly happy then I’m going to try to not be such a pouty little bitch over it.”

Laughing Avery moved from the seat she sat in at the table, enveloping Cordelia in a hug as she plowed her over, both girls falling over onto Avery’s bed.

“So this means we’re okay right?” Avery asked through her laughs hearing Cordelia laugh some too. “Because I really missed you Cordy.”

“I missed you too Avie,” Cordelia told her and that was really all Avery needed to know that they were indeed fine.

That hopefully they’d be fine for the long haul because she hated arguing with her best friend, even if she was losing both her best friends in a matter of months.

Grinning Avery pulled away from Cordelia some, “So since things are okay between us, how about going to that club with Juniper and I tonight? It’s just gonna be us because Cal has to work and Paisley is doing a project for school and she thinks she’ll be busy all night.”

“I sort of can’t,” Cordelia told her as she moved to sit up again. “I have a date tonight.”

“A date?” Avery asked shock evident in her voice. “Did you meet a girl who caught your eye during our estrangement Cordy?”

Cordelia rolled her eyes after Avery spoke, only playfully glaring after. “She didn’t catch my eye. More like I caught hers and I agreed when she asked me out for a movie and coffee afterwards. Decided that maybe I need to try to stop wishing for something that will never happen,” she shrugged her shoulders sounding wistful at the end.

Like despite her words she’d still hope deep down that things could work between them at some point in the future.

“Well,” Avery said as she sat up, slinging an arm around Cordelia’s shoulder. “I hope things go well for you and if you like her and she sticks around I want to meet her. No girl can date you without me approving cause you know that’s just how I am over my best friend.”

Cordelia again rolled her eyes, “Whatever you say mom,” she muttered out teasingly. “But if I do like her enough then of course I’ll introduce her to you and Juniper and hope like hell that you both like her.”

“Good,” Avery replied feeling a bit triumphant. “Now go, get ready to knock some girls socks off my dear Cordy,” she said before kissing Cordelia’s cheek softly.

Feeling Cordelia tense slightly at the gesture but she didn’t say anything. Instead she stood up from the bed, giving Avery a tiny smile before leaving the room and after she left Avery turned over on the bed, hoping for Cordelia’s sake the date worked.

That maybe this date would be enough to help her get over Avery. Even if Avery was certain that for awhile Cordelia would still have hopes.

Feelings were hard to turn off as Avery was learning with Paisley.


“I can’t believe you wanted to come here again,” Juniper spoke as she sat with Avery at the bar. “I mean your privacy got invaded here last time and you’re so willing to come again.”

Avery shrugged her shoulders, “I mean I can’t just avoid places in Tulsa because I’ll be afraid fans will see me at them,” she answered knowing she had considered avoiding this place.

But then again hadn’t she devoted enough time to fans last year? It could have been happenstance and maybe it wouldn’t happen again.

Anyway it was just a fan and she’d be in more trouble if it was family friends that she saw or knew. So far none of them had seen her and it was good that way. Best even and anyway she had more of a chance of seeing family or friends when in other places in Tulsa.

Places she wasn’t scared of going with her friends or Paisley. Heck she had kissed Paisley inside of Dilly Deli just yesterday. Without even thinking and even when she had realized well she didn’t regret it.

Though she had been afraid that somehow someone she knew had seen her but luckily no one had.

Juniper made a face at that. Like she thought otherwise but then again Juniper had always hated the fan attention once her and Cordelia had started getting it.

Had even said if she were related to Isaac, Taylor, and Zac she’d probably move to a convent or something. Which Avery found funny since her parents and Zac were Orthodox Christians and they also had nuns and monks.

Her parents would probably have been over the moon if she decided to become a nun or something.

“I just think it’s kind of reckless is all,” Juniper finally stated proving what Avery knew. That they thought differently. “But it’s your life so live it however you want, I say,” she smiled before taking a sip of the alcohol she had bought with her fake id.

An id that had been made last week by one of Calliope’s friends from college. Avery had also had one made but she hadn’t used it.

Was too afraid to use it. Because underneath it all she was still a good girl deep down. Even if maybe her parents or her mom in specifically sometimes thought different nowadays.

Before Avery could reply back to Juniper though, the bartender came over, carrying a drink which he placed in front of Avery who gave him a confused look.

“I didn’t order this,” Avery told him as she shook her head. Only watching as he gave her a smile.

“The woman over there ordered this for you,” the bartender spoke as he moved some, pointing to a woman who had to be in her mid to late twenties.

Avery blushed some as she gave the woman who was looking at her a bashful smile. Not used to anyone buying her drinks and Avery wasn’t stupid. She had seen enough movies and read enough books to know it happened when someone caught someone’s eye.

“Oh,” she only muttered before the bartender walked away and after he had she looked down at her drink. Her cheeks getting hotter as her blush grew.

“Isn’t that sweet,” Juniper teased as she nudged Avery in the shoulder. “You should go and talk to her you know,” she said and even without looking Avery could hear from her voice that she was probably smiling. “She’s attractive you know.”

Avery took a tiny sip of her drink, pleasantly surprised to find it was a strawberry daiquiri that she knew wasn’t a virgin one. She had, had a non virgin one the year she turned sixteen. Something Zac had snuck her up to her room that Thanksgiving as well as letting her smoke with him for the first time out on the little semi balcony of what had used to be his room but was now Mac’s.

“She’s older than me,” Avery stated as she finally looked back up at Juniper.

Juniper only narrowed her eyes, “Yes and Paisley is older than you too but you still have sex with her,” she said and okay she did have a point.

But well it was the mention of Paisley that was maybe the real issue. Did Avery really want to flirt with other women? Even though she did have permission from Paisley that she could sleep with other women since they were only friends with benefits.

“Paisley isn’t that much older and she knows my age. Is okay that I’m seventeen and will be eighteen this year,” Avery whispered so that the bartender wouldn’t hear them. “Not to mention like you said I have sex with Paisley.”

“But it’s only sex Ave,” Juniper said as she kept her face neutral. “You told me you two were just friends with benefits so it wouldn’t be wrong to have sex with other women. Anyway Cal is pretty sure Paisley is having sex with her ex Ellery again. I mean Ellery is the one helping her with that project she has tonight and Cal think it’s because Ellery is trying to get her back for good.”

Going silent at Juniper’s words, Avery took an even bigger drink of the strawberry daiquiri that had been ordered for her.

Her mind going to Ellery and how of course she knew Ellery was still in Paisley’s life. Had known it since last month when she saw them dancing in this very club but of course she hadn’t asked about Ellery since then. Not wanting to know if Paisley was indeed sleeping with an ex who Calliope said was toxic for her.

Not really wanting to know if Paisley was sleeping with anyone else besides her but the knowledge that she may have been. Well it hurt Avery and made something inside of her burn. Something that hadn’t happened before but was happening now.

Especially as her mind conjured up images of Ellery and Paisley in bed at this very moment in her apartment. Making love in the same places that Avery had just been on Thursday afternoon when she had went back to Paisley’s after their lunch at Dilly Deli.

Even with the images and the burning feeling inside of her though, Avery knew she couldn’t blame Paisley if she were sleeping with Ellery again. Minus the fact that she was toxic, she was attractive, way more so than Avery thought she was and maybe in the end Ellery was who Paisley wanted.

Maybe despite being with Avery, Ellery was Paisley’s eventual happy ending and one day Paisley would call their whole arrangement off to be with Ellery again for good and those thoughts, they were enough to give Avery the strength to finish her drink before standing up.

Deciding to take Juniper’s advice and walk over and get to know the woman who had bought her a drink because despite looking a bit older than Avery she was attractive. Very attractive and maybe Avery could see herself having sex with this woman by the end of the night.

Could forget for a few hours that the woman wasn’t Paisley long enough to get an orgasm from the whole thing and orgasms were always good.


Thirty minutes after going to talk to the woman, Avery smiled as she found herself out on the dance floor with the woman who she now knew was named Carol. A twenty-five year old who was in her last year of college to become a teacher to first graders.

As well as knowing that Carol had found her pretty from the moment she saw her tonight and that she had hoped by ordering her a drink that they could get to know each other a bit better.

Which they sort of had, except maybe Avery had fudged the truth on her age. Saying she was already twenty-one instead of the seventeen she was because surely if Carol had known her real age their conversation would have ended much sooner and maybe Avery needed it or so she told herself.

Was hoping for a way to forget the burning she still had when she thought of Ellery and Paisley together right now.

“You know Avery,” Carol smiled as she let her arms wrap around Avery’s waist which made Avery feel a bit nervous. “You really are attractive and I’m surprised someone hasn’t snatched you up already as their own,” she giggled slightly.

Her giggle reminding Avery of most of the cheerleaders she knew. Which maybe Carol had been a cheerleader in high school.

Natalie had been one back in her high school days and she also had the same giggle as Carol. Though Avery was sure Kate was the only cheerleader who didn’t have that giggle.

“Guess I’m just not good enough for anyone yet,” Avery stated feeling like maybe there was some truth to it.

Then again Cordelia did like her but of course it was her luck that crush had died when she developed feelings for Paisley who was just confusing her and it was her own fault. She had went into things so willingly and fell so hard when she had been told not too.

Carol only giggled again, “Now that has to be a lie if I’ve ever heard one,” she whispered her face leaning ever so closely. “An attractive girl such as yourself. Someone who seems to have their head on their shoulders and knows one day she wants a career in art,” she sighed her words showing that she had been listening when Avery confessed her future dreams.

“Any woman would be stupid to pass on a chance to have you,” Carol finished her lips connecting with Avery’s when she had and Avery wasn’t surprised by the kiss.

Not when Carol’s face had been getting closer and closer. But she was surprised at how quick she had responded to the kiss.

Carol’s lips much different than how Paisley’s felt against hers. Carol’s lips were much smoother, probably going out of her way to take care of her facial features because she seemed much more feminine than Paisley was. Which was another reason Avery suspected Carol may have been a cheerleader in high school.

The kissing only came to an end when they both heard someone loudly clearing their throat and when she had pulled away from Carol it took Avery a few minutes to come to the realization that a very pissed off looking Paisley was standing in front of them.

Her arms crossed over her chest as her glare was mostly on Carol but occasionally she’d look at Avery with it and Avery was sure if looks could kill she’d be dead. Dead or really close to death.

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